Monthly Archives: September 2012

Two Years and Counting

This last Wednesday, my husband and I celebrated two years of marriage. We haven’t been married long but we have been together for almost 9 years. And I know, it’s only the beginning.

Last night, after WAY too many cocktails, a friend (out of concern) tried to tell me that there was something wrong. Word to the wise, my friends: never have deep, dark discussions after consuming gallons of booze. It never ends well for anyone.

And though I know my friend meant well, the most disturbing part of last night’s intoxicated events, was how easy it was to convince me that there was a problem where I had never seen one before. Last weekend, I missed a wedding in order to see the Supernatural cast in Dallas. There are a thousand extenuating circumstances as to why I was in Dallas instead of in Maine, but, frankly, they are none of your business. To put it lightly, this friend of mine thought that I made the wrong decision.

I spoke about it with my husband this morning. He was upset that I would let anyone, regardless of who it was, influence my feelings, both about our relationship and my decision (something he and I had discussed at length). He had every right to be upset. Here’s why (consider my lesson learned): the only people who get to decide whether my marriage is going well or not, is my husband and I. The only person, other than me, who has any say in what I do or how I do it, is my husband. I should have known better than to let an outside person’s drunky judgment influence my feelings. In nine years, my husband and I have survived dirty socks, un-swept floors, missed birthdays, car crashes, moves, layoffs, births, deaths and our own wedding. I had no right to let one conversation with someone else, make me worry.

We were at the grocery store this morning, having fun doing menial tasks, as we always do (single ladies: find someone to make you laugh, above all else). After some teasing, I needed to get past Pete in the line and said: “Excuse me babe.” The cashier smiled and looked at the both of us: “You guys are so cute.”

We are, though, we really are.



Filed under Family, Marriage, More Me

Erin Does Dallas – Supernatural Style

I’ve had a busy year. I have done more events and more traveling this year than I have ever done in the past. No event though was more anticipated than the Supernatural Convention. Sandi, Jessica and I had planed on being in Nashville this last June and when that had to be moved up, we chose to go to the Dallas homecoming show instead. So, this last weekend was 15 months in the making. 15 months of planning and waiting and getting excited. The build up was so long that I worried it could never live up to what I was creating in my mind. I shouldn’t have worried. Worth every second we waited. Worth every penny we spent. I now know why so many SPN Con goers are repeat offenders.

I have done other conventions before. Large scale, multiple show cons and cons for one show only. None of them were on the level of the Supernatural experience. The cast seemed to legitimately enjoy spending time with the
fans. They were sincere and fun and more interactive than I ever could have guessed. They teased us about our questions. They understood all of the small details we put into every tumblr post. They get us. And they like us! Or, are very good at acting like they do. We were able to spend a lot of extra time with both Mark Pellegrino and Mark Sheppard on Saturday night and they were incredible. Funny, inspiring, brilliant and kind. I cannot say enough, how meaningful it was to get life advice from Mark Sheppard who is not only an incredible actor but an exceptionally insightful human being. The experience was life changing. And though he made fun of me, he didn’t seem to mind that I had indulged in bottle or two.

Karaoke on Friday night felt like a private concert. All of our favorite songs were made better by singing them out loud with our friends and cast members. Horrible singing at karaoke can cause serious headaches. Surprisingly, this was never the case here. Not everyone had the balls to get up on stage but everyone that did had the full backing of the entire audience. We were all in it together. It was difficult to keep from getting emotional while shouting the lyrics to “Carry On Wayward Son” with a room full of people who love it just as much as I do.

The panels were a great time as well. Such a fun way to learn more about our favorite actors and shows. The guys all really let their personalities shine while indulging our every whim and fancy. I would swear on a stack of bibles that I have never laughed so hard in my life. These guys are not only actors, but performers. They know how to put on a show. Not gonna lie, the hug requests nearly made me postal but I can understand the desire to ask. Everyone who appeared on Friday and Saturday was willing to personalize autographs and they were all fully interactive with us while signing. It probably should not have been such a big deal because of the financial transaction that took place behind the scenes, but it was a big deal. It felt good.

Sunday was our day with the boys. THE BOYS. It started with breakfast where their mere presence caused me to shake with excitement. I have watched these Sunday morning breakfasts on YouTube more times than I can count but there is absolutely no way to prepare for how incredible it is in person. It’s unreal how intimate it feels despite sharing it with a room full of people.

Photos were after that. Our chance to get them all to ourselves for all of 15 seconds. When I tell you that I was TERRIFIED to face Jensen, I am giving myself a lot of credit. Terrified does not even begin to encompass the fear I had going into that room. Chatting with new friends while waiting in line was a great distraction for a while. Huge thanks to Lynn and all of the ladies with her. Sandi took her photo first and was sweet enough to let the boys know how very scared I was. I thought Jessica would go next since that was how we were standing in line but, before I knew it, she was literally shoving me right at them. And then I was there. Standing face to face with two of the most gorgeous people who have ever graced the planet. They were beyond sweet. Concerned for me even. Jared rubbed my arm as Jensen informed me that my nerves were making him nervous. And then he demanded a hug. “Come here! Give me a hug!” I died. and then leaned into him as I let loose the cheesiest grin I have ever worn on my face. As I walked off, Jared rubbed my back and thanked me for being a good sport. Thanked me. What is that, even? And it must be said, as it has been said many times before, looking at Jensen from 6 inches away is like looking directly at the sun. Pure, heavenly, magic.

Their panel was better than great. They know what we like and they know how we like it. I had all these ideas going in. I was going to take a ton of pics and sneak some video, tweet the entire thing. But I could not tear my eyes off of them long enough to even pick up my camera or phone. Thank the unicorns Sandi was able to get some great shots. Without her amazing pictures, I could be convinced that the entire thing was just a dream. The autographs were our last chance to see them and they went by way too fast. Before we knew it, the whole thing, 15 months of anticipation, was over. Done. I feel like crying just saying it out loud.

During one of the panels, a cast member equated the Supernatural fandom to a secret society. This is not a show that is watched by everyone and their grandma. And for us, it is not a show we watch with anything less than our entire selves. I get that now. I wish I could hug each one of the fans that helped make the weekend so magical for me. Love you all.

To Sandi and Jess: you are my family. There are not words in any language to express how much I love y’all. I will never forget Jessica’s napkin, Sandi’s afro or late night, secret elevator rides. I would sell my soul at the crossroads if either one of you needed me to. Thank you for everything.

If any of you SPN fans get the opportunity to attend a convention, I demand that you take every advantage. Do it. Go. I swear to you that you will never be sorry that you did. I never will be.


Filed under Music, Television, Travel

The Vampire Diaries: Season 4 Roundtable Interview

The count down continues! We’re now just 4 weeks out from the season 4 premiere of The Vampire Diaries and I’m having a hard time thinking of anything else. Luckily I have incredibly intelligent friends who are willing to placate me and my need to talk about it endlessly by answering a few of my TVD questions. Huge thanks to Kate Welsh and Abby Graham of, author Thomas Galvin (read his  TVD recaps here), Melissa Miller of Small Screen, Carrie Raisler of AV and blogger Melissa Leaman (read her blog here).

What was your favorite moment of Season 3?

[Thomas] This probably won’t come as a surprise to anyone, but my favorite moment was the last scene of the entire season: Elena, “dead” and laying on a slab, wakes up and gasps.

I’ve been down on Elena for a while now. She definitely has her moments – like when she decided to start her Buffy training – but most of the time she’s a mopey suicide monkey in a Henley. I’m hoping that Elena gets the same awesome injection that Caroline got when she became a vampire.

Actually, I hope she turns into a tiny little Katherine. God, I love Katherine.

[Melissa M] The first thing that comes to mind is Klaus telling Caroline “I fancy you.” One, because who doesn’t love the phrase “I fancy you” – I mean really? I’m a die hard Austen girl and basically my dream is for a guy with an accent (anything UK will do) in a waistcoat to say “I fancy you” to me. Sure, I’d prefer him not to be a mass murderer or whatever. But that was still pretty awesome. I also love it for the way those 9 letters completely melted down my entire Twitter TL. For like an entire week.  I love when the tiniest little scene will do that.

Also, because I love a good cry, when Alaric came to Jeremy after he died. Just because his appearance was sort of nonchalant. “Hey. What’s up. I’m dead. I’ll be stalking you from the other side. Cool?”

[Melissa L] I can’t even pretend my favorite moment was anything but Klaus telling Caroline “I fancy you”. For all the reasons Melissa mentioned and more. I also still can’t think about that though without cracking up at the way a few of us were joking, trolling really, that Klaus & Caroline should hook up, just a week before the birthday episode. And then to see everyone’s reaction, including mine, when it became real…I know the main triangle is the big focus but I think that’s the kind of reaction a show should strive for from fans.
But if I pretend to be original, I actually loved Tyler revealing he’s actually Klaus in the tomb with Bonnie. Trevino absolutely nailed Joseph’ mannerisms, down to the little tilt of his head.

[Abby] Klaus’s monologue about the big wide world that’s out there waiting for Caroline. Not only did it make the entire fandom basically explode, it was just so perfectly executed, and so TRUE. The whole series revolves around Mystic Falls being the center of everything, this weird little town where everyone is always in danger and all your friends are supernatural. Of all the characters on the show, I think Caroline is the one who really needs her eyes opened to the bigger possibilities outside of school committees and raiding the Salvatores’ blood stash. Klaus’s age and worldliness comes through far better in that monologue than in any of his disparaging comments about small town life.

[Kate] I agree with Abby here. Many shows are insular, of course, but this one is particularly that way, and I love the idea of Caroline realizing that there’s a whole world out there, and Klaus realizing that Caroline needs to see that.

[Carrie] I have to go with Damon returning to Alaric’s side to sit with him as he died. Their relationship–and Alaric’s character in general–was important to the show in ways I almost didn’t even understand until Alaric was gone, and his entire death sequence just gutted me. I’m talking ugly sobs, sat-in-a-dark-room-once-the-episode-was-over-for-a-few-hours gutted me. So although this is my favorite moment of the season it also is my least favorite, because Alaric is dead and won’t be around to snark with Damon every week.

Were you at all surprised by Elena’s choices in the finale? Do you think getting her compelled memories back will change anything for her?

[Thomas] Not really, either from a character perspective or a show perspective. Elena has said plenty of times that “it’s always been Stefan.” She loves Stefan, genuinely loves him, and her feelings for Damon – which, I think, are also genuine – don’t change that.

But, I expect things to get a lot more complicated when she completes the transition. All of those feelings she has, for both brothers, are going to be heightened. And she’s going to want to bite or bang everything in sight. I think we’re going to see her seriously considering Katherine’s advice: there’s nothing wrong with loving them both. It’s just that I expect her to do more of that loving on her back.

From a show perspective, the producer’s mission statement is to cock tease Team Delena, so … yeah, I wasn’t surprised at all.

[Melissa M] It’s hard to be surprised that Elena would pick Stefan over Damon. All of Elena’s faults aside, she is a fiercely loyal girl. In her mind, her feelings for Stefan come from this innocent and pure place, and most of all, he came first. Damon, perhaps until she gets those memories back, is always going to be associated with guilt. Guilt of being with him when Stefan was gone. Guilt of liking him at all even when she was still with Stefan.

But those memories – specifically the one that was revealed in the finale – will they make the difference? Honestly, probably not at first. It depends on how much of human Elena sticks around with vampire Elena.

[Melissa L] As with the others, “surprised”? No. Nothing Elena’s done has indicated that she would have chosen Damon over Stefan at this point. Not in the sense of a final choice, this is the big one and you can’t go back from it.
I think getting her compelled memories will change her perspective but I don’t think it’s going to be in the way a lot of fans want. Elena’s compelled away memories of Damon are of a guy who’s kind and self-sacrificing and that’s a guy he refuses to be. It’s a guy that won’t take a step because he won’t betray his brother and I think Damon will actually be dealing with just as much confusion over Elena knowing this stuff as she will be.
And if I had my druthers? I’d like to see that Elena hit some Katherine levels of selfish. Once she struggles past having to transition and accepts it, I’d like to see her get pissed off. A lot of her choices have been taken from her and while she has a ridiculous martyr complex half the time, it’s not hard to see why. Everyone around her takes away her agency until that’s about all she has left. So yeah, I’d like to see an Elena who takes her new memories and abilities and does whatever the fuck she wants with them. If that includes a fight with Katherine…I won’t be complaining.

[Abby] I wasn’t surprised by Elena’s choices, I thought they were all very in line with her character as it’s been established to date. I don’t think getting her memories back will change her in any major ways, but I do think they’ll complicate matters for her emotionally. Personally, I hope she goes through a phase where she pushes away from BOTH Salvatores and the love story takes a back seat to character growth as she transitions to her new life.

[Kate] No, I wasn’t surprised at all. I’m not sure her memories specifically will change anything, but since she’s getting memories back while undergoing this transition, I think the whole experience will make her reevaluate everything in her life.

[Carrie] It’s a little sad none of us were surprised, isn’t it? My biggest complaint about Elena’s story in season three is that they completely chickened out on the Elena/Damon thing. This isn’t coming from a shipper’s perspective at all but from a viewer’s perspective, as I’m Team Interesting Television more than anything else. It’s been three seasons of this false love triangle. It’s time for her to make a decision that isn’t the exact same decision she made in episode six of the series, even if that decision is just to be sans-Salvatore for a while.

As for her compelled memories returning, I do think the memories of her first encounter with Damon will affect her actions. But isn’t that a bit of a cop-out on the writers’ part? The Damon who “she met first” is still the same Damon who shortly after that tortured Caroline and murdered half the town. Elena changing her feelings of Damon because of that encounter feels like a cheat, so I hope if it happens they give it far more nuance.

Any thoughts on the season 4 promotions so far?

[Thomas] Put Nina Dobrev in a pretty dress and add an ambiguously creepy / sexy quote next to her and I’m a happy man. Really, the people who advertise this show are just as amazing as the people who write, produce, and star. But more than anything, the promos I’ve been seeing just remind me how much I enjoy this show. I’m a big old vampire slut, and True Blood just doesn’t do it for me anymore. It’ll be nice to have good TV back.

[Melissa M] Man… I love that new promo. Damon is obnoxious in his honesty. Stefan is all broody. Jeremy makes fang jokes. Bonnie immediately goes to “What is the most dangerous witch solution I can think of” mode. Classic stuff. I’ve missed the crazy. I am still getting over the look Tyler gives Caroline when they are having sexy time in the woods, because, I’m assuming, that’s still Klaus in there. So that’s awkward. Mostly, I’m just figuring out the Inception “van going off the bridge”  moment. If this season ends with a top spinning….

[Melissa L] I was laughing at Jeremy’s fang joke pretty hard. Unfortunately I got way too excited about Bonnie’s whole “let me kill myself! That will fix it.” Especially because IT WOULD FIX SO MUCH but it will never happen. Or it might. I wanted Klaus to stay alive in a way that wasn’t pulled out of a hat and I wanted Vampire!Elena and I wanted Elijah to return and all those things are happening so…
I think the promo is fun as it always is and gets me excited and makes me hate that it’s not October 11th.

[Abby] Love the clips! Can’t wait for the season. I approve of Jeremy getting some sass. I’m  not as excited about the still photos so far. I’d like to see a little less posed-in-fancy-clothes and a little more action, there’s not much to set the S4 images apart from the other seasons. They’re attractive, but at this point I’d like to see something bolder and more interesting. I am really glad they did a full set of cast pictures, though, and I like the little props and poses.

[Kate] I don’t really have any specific thoughts, but they have made me remember how much I like the show and how happy I will be to have it back.

[Carrie] The new promo is fantastic, yes, but more importantly there is A PROMO PIC OF ELIJAH HELL YEAH.

What scene featuring Elena the vampire would you most like to see within the first 2 episodes of Season 4?

[Thomas] I want to see Damon begin teaching Elena the ways of the vampire. Stefan, I think, is going to be too busy hating himself for letting her die and too horrified by what Elena has become to be of much help, and when Damon takes a mentor role … you remember that scene where Damon showed Elena the way to a vampire’s heart? That nearly got me pregnant, and I’m a dude.

[Melissa M] First of all, I want Elena to use her new vamp-strength to punch Damon and Stefan. They kind of have it coming, no? But I really want to see an Elena/Caroline girl bonding moment. Remember when these two didn’t like each other all that much? Yeah, I blocked that out too. These two need some much deserved “We are BAMF vampire chics” girl time. Let’s make that montage happen.

[Melissa L] I want her to hug Matt. Maybe that’s more human Elena but I want her to go give Matt a hug and make sure he understands that he better not have any survivor’s guilt. I could care less if she tells Stefan that because if Stefan can’t swim fast enough to save both of them he deserves all the guilt he can heap on himself. (Yes, I’m with Paul on this one). The only two Vampire!Elena moments I’m really looking forward to are the day she gets to rub it in Katherine’s face and the moment she finally jumps Elijah’s bones and leaves the Salvatores behind.

[Abby] Murder! Blood flying everywhere! I want that girl to shove out from under the protective arms of the Salvatores and personally shred the next jerk who gives her trouble. I want her to snatch out a heart and take a bite like it’s an apple. None of this noble self-control stuff, Elena! Bring on the gore.

[Kate] I want to see some playful moments of her exploring her new powers – eavesdropping on faraway conversations, lifting heavy things just because she can, etc.

[Carrie] I’m sorry, I can’t concentrate on this question because Melissa L just mentioned Elena having sex with Elijah and my brain exploded.

Is there anything you are hoping might happen while Klaus is wearing Tyler’s body?

[Thomas] Do. Not. Want. That whole thing is just ick. The scene in the promo, where Caroline is stripping off her shirt and Kyler is leering at her? No thank you.

Basically, I want Klaus to say “hold up there Barbie, I jacked your boy’s body, but don’t worry, Bonnie’s going to hand-wave my old one back, and then we can have a proper, tawdry, consensual, and in no way rapey sex.” And then Sage would be all pouty. You know, if she wasn’t dead. Which she is. Thank God.

[Melissa M] I’m…. I’m not sure. It’s been all summer and I still don’t think I know how I feel about this one. I don’t hate it, but I don’t love it. I am unsure how I want it to go down. Partially, I just want Joseph Morgan back and I think that sort of messes with my opinion. But, not unlike what Thomas said, I don’t want it to completely mess up Klaus/Caroline because I have a feeling Klaus is going to be a creeper about it. As for what I do want, basically a scene of Tyler/Klaus standing in front of a mirror, admiring Tyler’s body. Because, it would happen.

[Melissa L] I only want Klaus to be a gentleman and push Caroline away. I’m worried about this story line to be honest. I don’t care if Klaus isn’t forthcoming about not being Tyler but I for all his murderous sociopathic ways, this feels like a line for Klaus. He wants people to want him. We saw that with his desire for family, for validation, for Stefan to want to be his friend, his attempts at wooing Caroline. A Klaus who suddenly says ‘well screw it, this is my chance to get in Caroline’s pants, let’s take it’? That’s not the Klaus we know. It doesn’t fit him at all and I guess I’m kind of scared that the writers don’t see it this way and will let Klaus push it too far. And from the reaction to Sage, it should be obvious that there are some lines the show shouldn’t cross.
On a more fun note though, I want to see if Bonnie can give him a headache in Tyler’s body. And if so, I’d love to see some banter between those two. When Bonnie knows she has the advantage, she can be a lot of fun. I’d be down to see that.

[Abby] I hope Carol yells at him for tracking mud in the house. Yes, I’m serious. I’m very interested to see how Klaus-In-Tyler handles the Caroline angle but I’m also hoping for a glimpse or two of Klaus having to cope with the reality of Tyler’s life in general. It’s been a while since Klaus was a teenage boy.

[Kate] I absolutely do not want anything to happen between Caroline and Klaus-in-Tyler. I would like it if the experience in general made Klaus stop for a moment and think about the effects of his actions on Tyler and the other people he uses as pawns.

[Carrie] I want something to happen because I’m curious to see how Michael Trevino plays it. But most of all, I want actual Klaus to come back because Joseph Morgan is just too good to waste. If Klaus could refrain from raping Caroline while he’s in Tyler’s body, well, that would be nice, too.

If you could hand pick a guest star for this season (a previous guest or one of your own invention) and choose their character and storyline how would it go down?

[Thomas] I would cast myself as a werewolf, and it would be awesome. My death would be via Damon’s heart rip.

[Melissa M] Jeremy’s MIA dog. That adorable pooch could be the star of the show.

[Melissa L] I want Mark Sheppard. I don’t care how, I don’t care as who, I just want Mark Sheppard on the show. If he  happens to be an insane member of the council who likes to torture vampires with an electric screwdriver (just not Caroline!), I could be very okay with that.

[Abby] More Daniel Gillies, please! I don’t care if they have an entire story arc about him buying a tie or drinking coffee, we just need more Elijah this year.

[Kate] I think this is the obvious next step in Katie Holmes’s comeback. But no, seriously, I’d love to have Gina Torres back – in a flashback, I suppose.

[Carrie] This is more of a guest character than star, but Katherine needs to come back. I don’t care that Julie Plec has basically said she’ll never come around while Klaus is still there, Katherine is far too good a character to sideline for this long. Katherine vs. Vampire Elena must happen.

What character are you hoping will be the superstar of season 4?

[Thomas] One of TVD’s strengths is the ensemble cast; they’re all superstars. But I would like to see:

* Elena become a complete badass
* Bonnie flip over to the dark side and start wreaking havoc
* Damon to be less emo and more neck snappy
* Stefan to continue walking a tightrope between the Ripper and the Hero Hair
* Caroline to not get raped

[Melissa M] Matt. I love that kid. As one of the only humans left I just want him to have his moment. He proved last season that he is not going to just fade away because he is without vampire, werewolf or witch powers. He will drug his ex-girlfriend or drown himself in the school pool. He will do what he has to. I want Matt and Jeremy to continue their “We are human, hear us roar” dynamic duo bromance. Don’t get lost among the supernatural, Matt!

[Melissa L] Matt. I adore Matt. Always have, always will. Just as I want Elena to take her agency back, I’d like Matt to do the same. He’s made his own decisions about getting involved with the supernatural but I’d like to see him start taking charge.
I’d also love for the writers to either figure out how to utilize Bonnie in a way that isn’t as a plot device or a shrill harpy and make her integral to the show again. Give Kat Graham half a chance and she shows so much potential in what Bonnie could be. So I’d like to see Bonnie & Matt get a chance to shine.

[Abby] I’m more interested in seeing new combinations of actors than I am in seeing any one particular one in the spotlight. I’d like to see all the characters interact with people we don’t usually see them on screen with. We’ve proven that every member of the cast is individually strong and talented, now I want the characters to team up in different configurations than we’ve previously seen.

[Kate] Elena. I can’t wait to see her come into her own. And I agree with Abby that I want to see everyone teaming up and working together in different combinations.

[Carrie] It is imperative that the show figures out Bonnie this season. They’ve laid the groundwork for a compelling “dark side” arc. Now the writers need to make it happen, because it’s embarrassing how horribly the character has been treated in the series so far. Bonnie doesn’t need to be the most important character of the season, but what she does needs to be good.

Your most burning TVD question:

[Thomas] The thing I’m most curious about is how they plan to up the stakes (see what I did there?) from last season. They just took on and defeated (or at least stalemated) the most powerful supernatural creatures in the world. So where does the show go from there?

The Mystic Falls Civil War seems like it has a lot of potential. There are a lot of teams forming – Team Human, Team Vampire, Team My Name is Bonnie and I’m Through Taking Your Crap, Team My Kid’s a Monster But I Still Love Them, Team Sorry But Your Kid’s A Monster And I’m Contractually Obligated to Murder Them Now, and so on. Watchin all of these factions go at it – and seeing the emotional fallout – should be fascinating.

[Melissa M] Eek. Such a hard one for me. Mostly, as a writer, I am just constantly surprised with how every episode moves at such an amazing clip and they keep the intensity so high. Every week is sweeps week! So I just want to know how. HOW?? And what is possibly going to happen this season? What’s worse than a family of originals and a burning bridge? A pack of Alpha Werewolves? Wait… wrong show.

But my real burning question, above all others – I want to know all of their high school GPAs. Are ANY of them passing?

[Melissa L] When will the Hale pack to show up in Mystic Falls, kick some ass and steal Caroline away with them? And will there be sassy Peter and Elijah banter?
But yeah I think my most burning question is whether this brewing Civil War & council vendetta will be a legitimate threat. Because I really, really want it to be. Give me humans fighting their own damn battles any day of the week.

I also need to know what kind of blood Elijah drinks.

[Abby] How are they doing to handle the fallout? I’m personally hoping that the “big bad” for the first half of season 4 is just the collective consequences of all the crap that happened in the second half of season 3. I don’t think we need any giant ancient evils when there’s so much freaking clean up to be done. Fingers crossed that Elijah comes in to help neaten things up, nobody else on the show is anywhere near organized enough to put it all to rights.

[Kate] My burning question: Why hasn’t anyone taken in poor Matt yet? There are an awful lot of spare bedrooms in Mystic Falls, and absolutely no reason why a nice kid should be having to try to support himself. I bet he’d be a very considerate, helpful houseguest, too.

[Carrie] Where is Katherine? No, seriously. WHERE IS KATHERINE?


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My Vampire Diaries Hiatus Survival Kit: Part Three

Happy TVD DVD day!! That is SO much fun to say! And not just because we finally get to celebrate the latest season of our favorite show being ours to own and hug and watch FOREVER. I thought today would be the perfect day to unleash my favorite episodes of season 3. Not only is the DVD out today, but we still have a little over 4 weeks to wait for the Season 4 premiere! UGH! October 11th cannot come fast enough! I was unable to hold myself to 5 as I did with Season One and with Season Two. There were just way too many awesome moments. Don’t forget to share your favorites with me in the comments!

1.) “The Birthday” (3×01)

Best Bite: This episode set a tone: This season was going to be painful. And in the first of many, MANY ugly cry-inducing moments, Stefan moved from under Klaus’ watchful eye long enough to make a phone call to Elena. And though he doesn’t utter a word, the conversation was enough to both give me hope that someday all would be right with the world, and to break my heart into a million pieces. “Stefan, if this is you, you’ll be okay. I love you, Stefan. Hold on to that. Never let that go.”

Damon thrashing Stefan’s room in utter despair also registers (a.k.a. makes me sob).

Meanwhile in Mystic Falls: This was the first episode to ever reflect a time lapse and they did an amazing job with that. It honestly felt like it had been ages since the Season Two finale. Jeremy is still seeing ghosts, Tyler and Caroline decide to get hot & heavy and Alaric feels unworthy of guardianship.

Character I’d like to set on fire: Klaus. I love him and want to bash his head in at the same time. He’s got Stefan under his thumb and what he does to poor Ray is just gross and pretty terrible.

Moment to stake: Stefan compelling Andie to jump to her death is horrible. And sad. And proof that the Stefan I love is so far away.

Fave Damon-ism: “You don’t want that. You want the cheap, young stuff over by the cheap, young people.” “Drink more. It’ll feel less weird.”

Biggest Question: What the hell car is Jeremy driving and how did he get it?

The song I play: The episode is full of great dance songs. I love to jam out to Cobra Starship’s “You Make Me Feel.” But when I want the good stuff, when I’m feeling all of the feels, only Ron Pope’s “A Drop In The Ocean” will work for me.

2.) “The End of the Affair” (3×03)

Best Bite: I love the 1920s and I love Katherine’s bob but I mostly love Stefan’s scary closet o’ victims. Elena gets caught in there when he and Klaus show up at the apartment and for 30 perilous seconds I am caught in a whirlwind of emotions, wondering for the first time if Stefan will actually do something to hurt Elena, getting angry that something like that would even cross my mind.  Stefan doesn’t give her away, of course, but he doesn’t reach out for her either and at the end of the episode, when he sends her away, telling her he doesn’t want her anymore, I am too exhausted from that moment in the closet to do anything other than join my unicorns in their puddle and weep.

Meanwhile in Mystic Falls: Bill Forbes is torturing his own daughter, trying to burn the vampire right out of her. Horrifying. Tyler’s rescue is beyond. And Elena reading all about Stefan’s worst day makes me miss Lexi.

Stuff to think about: Our first introductions to Rebekah and Gloria. Both of whom will prove to be a tad troublesome. And I’d never thought I’d say it, but it’s nice to see Katherine again.

Character I’d like to set on fire: Rebekah. I think it’s almost funny that she thought the real Stefan was ever in love with her.

Moment to stake: Finding out that Elena’s necklace first belonged to Rebekah. Ugh.

Fave Damon-ism: “You know you were dreaming about me. It explains the drool.” “I’m shocked! Stefan’s not a virgin.”

The song I play: Birdy’s “Shelter” is so moving when Caroline lets both her mom and Tyler help her heal.

3.) “The Reckoning” (3×05)

Best Bite: Klaus has finally had enough of Stefan’s lying and duplicity and feels he must be punished. Only, punishment for Stefan means punishment for everyone (a.k.a. Me). Stefan does his very best to fight Klaus’s compulsion to make him drink Elena. He screams at her to run, he tries to stake himself! He works so hard to keep her safe, to cling desperately to his humanity. In the end, none of it matters because Klaus takes it away. Just. Like. That. And after the love for Elena leaves his eyes, he sinks his teeth in and I can’t help but think back to the night when Elena first learns what he is, when he promises that he’ll never hurt her. THAT Stefan doesn’t live here anymore. “What did you do?” “I fixed him.”

Meanwhile in Mystic Falls: Tyler nearly dies only to rise again as a Hybrid and Matt drowns himself just to see ghosts.

Stuff to think about: Can we talk about how the “pranks” being pulled are kind of stupid? Dawson’s Creek did it so much better.

Character I’d like to set on fire: Klaus is so awful in this episode. Far beyond his usual evil. It is here that he takes his horror to the next level.

Moment to stake: RIP Dana.  Now is the time, I guess.

Fave Damon-ism:  (to Katherine) “Truth is, you just don’t do it for me anymore.” “I wouldn’t have done it for you.”

Biggest Question:  If Elena’s necklace was important, how come it was never as big of a deal as the moonstone, until now?

The song I play: Shady Bard’s “Torch Song” is both gorgeous and devastating as it plays over Damon finally coming to Elena’s rescue. “Where were you Damon?”

4.) “Smells Like Teen Spirit” (3×06)

Best Bite: Stefan’s transformation into full on Ripper is as heart crushing as it gets but I can’t help but find his nonchalant douche baggery 100% charming and hilarious. Bloody twister, leaving food on the rug, shoving dudes with the audacity to bump into Elena. But maybe he’s okay because he is staring longingly at her and then saves her when she falls? I am so ruined by this show.

Meanwhile in Mystic Falls: Alaric and Damon are training Elena to Buffy up, Caroline is dealing with her boyfriend the sired, hybrid, ass, Matt is chatting up his evil, dead sister and Jeremy is getting closer to Anna. Again.Oh right, and Katherine is at work.

Character I’d like to set on fire: Ugh. Sired Tyler is SO obnoxious! Poor Caroline. Hasn’t she been through enough?

Moment to stake: I know in my heart that it isn’t possible, but I feel like Alaric stakes Stefan just before the magic part!

Fave Damon-ism: “The two brunettes on the staircase owe me a Persian rug.”

Biggest Question: “We need to de-rippify Stefan before he destroys my house.” Has Damon already forgotten about the time when he got bored inside and made a big ol’ mess?

The song I play: “Rave On” by Cults. The perfect song for a high school party full of grown up drama.

5.) “Do Not Go Gentle” (3×20)

Best Bite: We all felt it coming. We knew it would be over soon. That doesn’t mean the loss of our Alaric was any easier to bear. The site of everyone gathered to mourn him was too much. The entire fandom wept. When Damon went inside the tomb to share one last bottle with his bestest, good friend, we all lost a piece of ourselves. With all of the loss we’ve experienced over three seasons in Mystic Falls, this one was the hardest yet. But we all did it together.

Stuff to think about: “Taking care of you and Jeremy has been the closest I’ve ever come to having the life I’ve always wanted.”

Character I’d like to set on fire: Esther. My good GOD she sucks. I would die of exhaustion before I would tire of stabbing her in the neck with a fork.

Moment to stake: RIP Team Blood and Beer.

Fave Damon-ism:  “I offered to snap his neck, put him out of his misery. He didn’t take me up on it.” “Sorry I killed you. Twice.”

The song I play: The Fray “Be Still” – sobbing for days.

6.) “The Departed” (3×22)

Best Bite: Sure. I always thought that Elena becoming a vampire was a thing. Some… thing that would happen way in the future. Maybe. And then. She died. Elena mother effing died. Like, dead. Is there a card for that? “I regret to inform you that you are now dead. Enjoy unlimited existence. Also, enjoy having fangs for eternity. And shit.”

Stuff to think about: Despite the fact that she is now on their wave length, neither one of the Salvatore brothers are going to be happy about this. Oops.

Character I’d like to set on fire: Rebekah. Again. Barbie Klaus just makes messes where ever she goes. She is a total nuisance!

Fave Damon-ism:  “Have I told you lately how much I appreciate you not being the dumbest brother on earth?” “No, no, no, no. Did I mention no?” “You know what else is her call? Every thing bad ever.”

Biggest Question: Has Caroline ever read anything about head injuries? Pretty sure booze is not recommended for concussions.I’m no doctor though.

The song I play: Sigur Rós “Dauðalogn” – It’s obvious. But dark. And sad. And absolutely perfect.

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9/11 After 11 Years

Over the last year I have had the privilege of reading and hearing  a lot of people tell their 9/11 stories. It’s always interesting and moving to read the stories from that day. These stories have changed the world. Here is mine:

It was the 2nd day of my 2nd week back to real life. I had lost my mom unexpectedly on the 25th of August. I took that first week off after she died to help plan her funeral and greet the hundreds of people who came to offer support to my family. After a quiet Labor Day weekend it was time to get back to life. I had 2 jobs and a full class load at college waiting for me.

When we were little and all through high school, when ever we were complaining that we didn’t feel good, my mom had always said to us, “get up and get moving and you’ll feel better.” Much to our dismay, she was almost always right. On that Tuesday morning I was just repeating that in my head over and over. Get up. Get moving. You’ll feel better. Getting up wasn’t all that difficult to do since I hadn’t been sleeping well anyways. I had been up to see my dad off to work at 5:30 and had taken the longest shower of my life. I didn’t have to be to class until 8, so when I was ready to go at 6:30 (I was in Colorado, so it was 8:30 EST) I sat down to watch the Today show because my mom had always watched Today when she was getting ready in the morning.

And there, behind the heads of Matt Lauer and Katie Couric I watched the entire world break apart. It felt like watching a movie. It couldn’t be real. What in the hell was going on? The minute I showed up to class that morning, they had us all stuck to the television. Right up until the time they sent us away. With zero answers and so much fear, they sent us home. And then my night job decided to close early as well. With what was left of my family, I sat glued to the TV, unable to turn away. One more horrifying chapter to add to the story of my life. Only this time it was so much worse. And we didn’t have mom there holding our hands or making us mac & cheese as we all cried during the nonstop footage we just couldn’t seem to turn away from.

Why had this happened? We weren’t even allowed time to recover from one tragedy before we were faced with yet another. And while the events of 9/11 were an absolute nightmare, they served as a distraction from the nightmare we were already living.

I was lucky enough not to have lost anyone that day. So many people were not. I really felt for them, though. For the first time during a tragedy, I actually knew what it was like to feel such a devastating loss. As those buildings crumbled to the ground, so did the last of all that was right with the world.

In the days after, when it was time again to try to get back to our regularly scheduled lives, my sister and I talked about the overwhelming numbness and fear that we felt. Like nothing would ever be right with the world again. It was too much at once and we had a pretty hard time dealing.

Eleven years later, despite all of the tragedy, life has gone on.

I have met and married a Navy man who served on board a ship sitting below the Brooklyn Bridge, that on that day was forced to threaten to shoot down planes daring to cross them.

Since that day I have seen one sister join the Army and one join the Navy. I have seen them off on one military deployment after another. But we have all survived. And we have all built new lives for ourselves. We have all moved on. But we all still remember.I am sure the entire country has done that with us.

As we move on, and build our lives, we take time today to remember all of those who were taken from us on that tragic day. God bless us every one.

“It has been said, ‘time heals all wounds.’ I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.”
― Rose Kennedy

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The Vampire Diaries Season 4 – My Gifts for the Residents of Mystic Falls

TVD Season 4 is only 5 weeks away! And while that sounds like a long time, I am hoping that it will just fly by. As the characters all prepare for what lies ahead, I am presenting gifts to help each of them on their way. Don’t forget to tell me in the comments what you would gift your favorite TVD character.

For Bonnie: 

It looks like Bonnie will be getting into magic a little above her head again. That means bloody noses galore. I gift to her a box of tissues so she doesn’t make a mess.

For Jeremy: 

Poor Jer is now the last living member of his family. That means he no longer has a living legal guardian. I gift to him paperwork for the emancipation of a minor.

For Matt:

I cannot imagine there are a lot of people very happy with Matt at this point. It’s not entirely his fault but there is no doubt he will be blamed for what happened to Elena. I gift to him a passport so he can get out of town until things blow over. Bon voyage Matty!!

For Caroline: 

Caroline already does quite a bit of kissing. But now that her dangerous admirer is wearing the body of her boyfriend, I feel like the amount of kissing could increase significantly. I gift to her Chapstick. Things could get ouchie without it!

For Tyler/Klaus:

I highly doubt that Klaus has thrown the pigskin around much in his many centuries. Not sure how long he’ll be in Tyler’s body but what if he has to play a game? I gift to him some instruction.

For Damon:

Damon is angry. Probably with just about everyone. Including himself. It won’t do anyone any good if he goes on a killing spree so I am gifting to him something to help him burn off that anger without permanently damaging all of the beautiful faces around him.

For Stefan:

Stefan has a long history of brooding and guilt but there is no way we’ve ever seen the level of guilt he’s sure to feel regarding Elena’s death. I gift to him something to take the edge off so that we’re not all suffering from his mopey disposition.

For Elena: 

Handling one’s own death cannot be an easy thing. And we all know that there are a lot of rules. My gift to Elena to help her through the transition:


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