****This post contains spoilers for One Tree Hill 9×11********
I have shared with you all stories about how Nathan and Haley’s first kiss song also changed my life. I have told some of you that my wedding band looks exactly like Haley’s. I have expressed how much it hurt to watch Haley lose her mom as I too lost my own mother when we were both far too young.
In tonight’s OTH Nathan Scott lost his dad. A father who totally sucked for most of Nathan’s life. The dude was abusive and harsh and horrible. He even killed his own brother. It was very hard to love Dan Scott. In the end though, Dan saved Nathan’s life and he was forgiven and his family got to be with him as he died. It was really beautiful. And totally believable (which in the One Tree Hill world is hard to come by).
I have my own daddy issues. The guy is a real jerk. He totally changed after my mother passed away 1o years ago and now we haven’t spoken in more than 5 years. He isn’t a part of my life or the life of my two sisters. He wasn’t at my wedding and he has never seen my niece, his only grand-baby.
What really got to me about tonight’s episode was the thought of never getting that closure. What if my dad dies and I don’t even know? What if we never get that goodbye? That forgiveness? That last I love you? The man never killed anyone but he has been pretty awful to me and to my family over the years.
So what if? What if we never get those last moments? My heart breaks at the thought.
But I am so very happy for Nathan. If only real life could work like TV, right?